An entry is missing from my brand-new diary. Just 6 days into the new year and I’ve already blown it!
This ate at me all yesterday. And I wasn’t ever able to overcome inertia and just sit down to do the things that I had committed to and wanted to be accomplishing. I felt bad about myself and my inability to motivate. I tried to think about mustering a strategy that’s gotten me through in the past, but frustration and complete disinterested in my new goals was all I felt.
Maybe I wasn’t that committed. Maybe I was stupid to think I could start writing after such a long wordless time.
Or maybe it just what fucking happens during an insurrection?! I don’t know, I’m new at this.